My Healing Planet

Hi,

It has been quite a while since I last wrote and quite a bit has been happening in my life and I feel the need to leave it here and let it be. I have been on chemo for over a year this time going for it every week and scans every two months.  Somehow  with hair I can look in the mirror and feel a sense of false security or maybe denial or maybe a variation of hope and my ability to shut out the future and be here now. What I see looking back is a well person.

This last week I found that the signs are there that  cancer is getting ready to grow again so it is time for a medication change…I am waiting  for options…I have had almost every treatment available at this point and it has brought me here to this place where though in a bit of shock I am also feeling various degrees of things most of all acceptance. The words of my doctor saying ” I cannot  fix this” finally hit home but…after the tears…the anger…the fear…there is me…still looking  at myself and saying ” you are a well person” let it be…just let it be.

To you my friends- 

be happy with your beloved
you can’t find any better
the world will shimmer
because of the diamond you hold

when your heart is immersed
in this blissful love
you can easily endure
any bitter face around

in the absence of malice
there is nothing but
happiness and good times
don’t dwell in sorrow my friend

Rumi

LET IT BE-